Learning To Hate You As A Self Defense Mechanism

verse 1 you're on the phone with someone who doesn't know about your soul and how it can't be held by flesh and bone and i guess that's fine i would never want you to stop your life but when i saw you both with your shoulders touching sitting so close verse 2 i knew i'd hold on to this feeling i'd hold on to anything at all was it my fault because i easily confused you for someone who would hold my hand when things got hard when things got dark because oh my god when they get dark they get so dark verse 3 you were always a shitty friend and you would leave when i got sick you never called me on my birthday i want to call you on your birthday so i'll hold on to this feeling i'll hold on to this hate for as long as i need for it to help me