Make It Up As I Go

I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am Verse Woke up this morning holding my head Thinking last night is one I'll regret Washing off the bad decisions, the blurry vision The clues that I'm still a mess Spitting out the taste I have in my mouth Knowing what this is all really about Knowing there's an explanation, an expiration I gotta figure shit out Pre-Chorus And they're asking me if I can see the darkness down below And I know it's true, I say I do, when half the time I don't Maybe I can't make what it may take to leave this thing behind But I shut my eyes and cross each line and every time I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am Verse Waking in the dead of night, I can't sleep Sleeping in the light of day for like weeks Reality was out of focus, I could be hopeless Instead I gritted my teeth I didn't have the patience left to explain Didn't wanna wait while nobody came I know the path ahead's uneven But while I'm breathing, I have to make my own lane Pre-Chorus And they're asking me if I can see the darkness down below And I know it's true, I say I do, when half the time I don't Maybe I can't make what it may take to leave this thing behind But I shut my eyes and cross each line and every time I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, oh-oh I make it up as I go, as I go I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, oh-oh I make it up as I go, as I go