Intro: (and between Part 1 and 2) 1. love is a disease it infects what you believe about yourself and the others you need and love is not kind it won't smile and it won't shine it isn't there when you need it. you can't save it and you can't delete it and love is cruel and unforgiving and love is usually unwilling to give you back what you've been building it will scorch the earth just cos you're tilling it and like a cat you've been petting, for every day and every single week, but when you need it and when you're feeling weak all it really wants to do is fall asleep because love is vicious and love is spiteful but love also just doesn't care so you can fight it but when you strike at it it'll just vanish like it was never there but believe me it's still there, not in your shoes or heart or hair cos i've looked in all the obvious places and still haven't found it anywhere but when i find it i will kill it, so that i can get on with my life and regain composure of my posture and control of the thoughts in my own mind because love will break you apart. 2. but now hate is accessible and jealousy is free bitterness is easy and blame comes even easier for me. And lust is a game that you always will lose but who minds losing when each level has new contestants for you to choose and you can yell out Okay i'm finished, now i want to win! well too bad cos winning's not up to you, all you can do is choose when to begin to start losing something different shaped vaguely like pride but much bigger and much heavier and much much easier to find and once you give that away you will know by the sickness in your stomach and the numbness in your toes because love will break you apart and love will break you apart love will break you apart love is hard.