December 9th

i picked up a pen, with neal sitting by my side. coffee gone cold, and battery died. just want to write you a song, and there is nothing in my head. sitting here all alone, hours and hours passing by. your voice?s so soft, your word?s so kind. you are the kind of man i will never find again. and i wonder if you?lL miss me too. there is only one thing on my mind. i just wanna let you know, let you know, let you know. i think about you, think about the way you sIng me songs on the line i think about you, think about how we fell asleep under the stars that night. i think about you, every hoUr, every minute, every second of my life. i think about you all the time, but i can't tell you i miss you so bad. december 9th 11?15, under that christmas tree. you, me and little neal make us three. in that cafe upstairs second to the right, would you be there? would you drink cappuccino or latte? my eYes on you, my love?s blind. my heart will never feel this way agAin. and i wonder if you?lL miss me too. there is only one thing on my mind. i just wanna let you know, let you know, let you know. i think about you, think about the way you snore louder than a freiGht train. i think about you, think about how you chase after me every time we fight. i think about you, every hour, every minute, every second of my life. i think about you all the time, but i can't tell you i miss you so bad. i kneW from the start, that we're worlds apart. i'm stuck at the moment when you were mine. your voice keeps replaying in my head. so will you come back to me, come bAck to me, come back, come back in time? i think about you,think about the way you kiss me in the pouriNg rain. i think about you,think about how we eat yoghurt with nacho and did it again. i think about you, every hour, every minute, every second of my life. I think about you all the time, and i am lying to myself. you won?t leave, you won?t baby. You were gonna stay, honey. you?ll be with meeeee. you?ll fight for neal, baby. you?ll fight for us, honey. you?ll fight for meeeee. i'm so sorry, baby. i promise i'll change. will you come back to me? i think about you, think about the way you wrote our name in the sand. i think about you, think about how we buried our little babies and cried. i think about you, every hour, every minute, every second of my life. i think about you all time, but i can't tell you i miss you so bad. but it's time to face the truth. i will never be with you.