) Im always so lonely, frustrated and angry And I never know if its my fault Or if its just my brain working fucking wrong I have got problems that I cannot withhold Cause I have got diseases that I cannot control My feelings are at the mercy of my chemical imbalances Im trapped inside the torture of living with bipolar disorder Ill always hate myself more than I hate anyone else Ill always hate myself more than I hate anyone else Cause I know that I have earned it From years and years of treating myself like shit ) And I want to believe that its not my fault ) And I want to believe I can live a fulfilling life But I might not I might not