I have a secret. It's haunting me Sometimes I wanna tell you I'm not what I seem It breaks my heart when I look in your eyes You see me smile, but I'm alone inside Happiness depends on the silence I keep I know that I should tell you, but can't bring myself to speak I'm so disguised. I don't know what's true It kills me when I see what it does to you It's a big, big lie You're about to see through And I don't know why It's all I can do It's a big, big lie I'm hiding from you I don't love myself So how can I love you? No, oh. How can I love you? I toss and turn. I can't sleep Why am I so lonely? You're right next to me It's building up inside me. I can hardly breathe You're lying there so peaceful, and I just wanna scream It's a big, big lie You're about to see through And I don't know why It's all I can do It's a big, big lie I'm hiding from you I don't love myself So how can I love you? No, oh. How can I love you? I keep thinking that you're gonna hear it In the words that I don't say Someone tell me how long, oh how long Can I live my life this way? Oh yeah You're about to see through I don't know why, but all I can do Is lie I don't know why It's all I can do It's a big, big lie I'm hiding from you I don't love myself yet So how can I love you? It's a big, big lie (It's a big, big lie) You're about to see through And I don't know why (And I don't know why) It's all I can do It's a big, big lie I'm hiding from you I don't love myself How can I love you?